holiday cheer

my whole life i hated christmas.  growing up half jewish made christmas a big drag because i always felt left out. this year i bought a tree and decided that while christmas may or may not be the worst thing ever, i like the smell of a pine tree in my living room, i like warm fuzzy feelings when it is really cold outside. i'm over the fact that whomever you choose to believe that jesus was or represents, he definitely was not born in december. i'm over the fact that just like pretty much every other holiday, christmas has become a time for uber-consumption.  i'm over the fact that hanukkah is just a christmas supplement-as any good orthodox jew would tell you, hanukkah is not really supposed to be a huge deal, i mean yeah the oil burned for 8 days and all, but the gift giving and all that has just been tacked on so that the jew children don't feel quite so alienated and left out come christmas time.  

i'm over all of it, i just want to embrace the solstice and the time of year... and so the fuck what if i want to drag a dead tree in the house and put lights and crazy balls all over it. this year it is making me happy.